Empire type a night!

Just stopping by huntys!!Things are still on the up and up and life is reaaalll good, summer was hot and hot as usual lol. Now it's fall and the weather is nice and soothing hehehe. Well not much to say,tonight lots of good TV shows on yayay. alright see ya peace!

Feeling good feeling great...feeling great feeling good how are uuuu

Soooo I'm back to blog again since it's been a while and all and I can say with a big fat smile on my face that I've never felt better!!! Ever since I moved back into my own living quarters and moved on from everything negative and what not, things have fallin into palace and I'm seeing the blessings with my name on em rain down and they just keep on coming! I'm truly thankful and just amazed at how much He has done with I gave it all to Him and let my faith and hope by my guide, I have a great job that I'm comfortable with and also stay busy with, it's close to my apartment its not customer service and it's an awesome work/life balance!! I'm really in a good space and I wanna keep it that way, I haven't "arrived" or however you say and I'm still learning and growing and choose to allow the things i go through as learning lessons and ways to improve and i know I'm doing a great job I'm proud lol. It's really a shame that some ppl can apply the same to their own lives becasue when you take the time to grow yourself and take advice from ppl that really care and change, it's a beautiful thing. One thing I tell myself is to not let horrible ppl who are spiteful or petty ruin who i am just because they aren't happy in their own lives, i choose to believe that ppl like that just want you to come DOWN to their level and feel just as miserable as they do, well I'm here to tell ya YOU can't bring me down and I refuse to let ppl like that stay in my life or call them a friend or anything close to a loved one...I still wanna be the person I am who does things outta the kindness of my heart and help ppl anyway that i can, I wont let unappreciative ppl, lairs, and ect tear me down, I choose to accept what happen and move on and know better next time but believe karma is very real and what goes around most certainly comes back around bee-lee DAT ahahaha, I'm really using this post as a venting session mostly even though i have a strong support system and talk with them, it helps to have it written down sometimes to go back on and read and get a feel as to where your head space is/was and all that, I wanted to point out my positives and and release the things that for some reason seem to still amaze me with other human beings. but at this point I'm not surprised anymore, I know i haven't see it all but I'm good on ppl who claim to be soooo happy in life and claim to be great at communication but all they really are is lost in denial and use ppl to fill some sort a empty space they they have in life, just sad, I'll continue to pray that ppl like that find what it is they are really want and release that hurt they seem to be holding onto, and yes I'm talking about someone particular who I'll give the name CD, I don't wanna look at this as a bashing session but just as a way to get an understanding as to how someone can be like they are and how they treat ppl, it's definitely a reflection of how they feel about themselves so I can't take it personal at all, becasue they'll just do it to everyone around them but all I know is that I def don't want or need ppl who disrespect others in my life, f#$%k being fake and talking to a MF cuz I'm bored bitch BYE! IDGF who you are and i'm glad i reached a place in my life to where i can speak up because there was a time when i wouldn't say shit and let ppl walk over me not no MO! AHHH I could go on and on about this and how my perspective has changed greatly but I wont and I'll

just leave it at this K bye

I AM Delivert! some more

Hey Hey Hey!!! I back one month later like I planned to give y'all a piece, so I don't have too much T to spill but I know one thing so much has happened within these past few months and the b-day is approaching quickly! I'm finna be an old lady waahhh. Oh well that just means I'm getting finer like wine bahahahaaha...so I have officially moved!! to my OWN spot and I couldn't be happier decided to do the roommate thing again was a learning experience and made me realize how much I hate it, I'll never do it again until I'm living with my significant other, having a roommate is for the birds I like have my own space and peace of mind and also not having to worry about lines being crossed or anything like that, when I can just have my own place and not worry about it, I've always said the place u stay should be your safe haven and place to relax and have peace, I didn't have that for so many months and I'm just appreciating my new place that much more with my buddy teddy( my dog). I don't regret anything but instead I look back and I see things differently now and I keep mental notes of it so that I don't end up in the same situations I was in before, I went into that living situation thinking it would be alright and couldn't foresee problems with the person I was about to call a roommate BOY was I WRONG!! (I'm about to go in and let have) Sooo a friend told me that going into living with a friend can make you closer or possible make the relationship closer and I feel it did just that, messed up the friendship and most definitely make me see them in a different light and not a good light, it wasn't until after I agreed to move in and a week long vacation took place that I saw this person in completely different way and the way I was treated by them was shocking to me. so with 2 weeks before moving in I had no options to find another place especially with limited funds smh...I wont bore you all with details but I thought that I could stay because it did become bearable but the last 3 months no way, I just can't wrap my head around agreeing to have someone new come into a place I live where I pay my portion of the bills (half) and that 3rd person pays nothing just because u have lonely issues...and to agree to something that was propose wasn't an option in the end because I felt like it was some attempt for them to "run" things which I became hip to over time...sigh. This whole thing has made me realize that no matter how convincing someone's words may be, it means absolutely nothing if you aren't executing it with actions or showing effort on improving, I honestly thought I could trust and I believed nothing could go wrong, no tea no shade but after know said person for a year and a half I finally got to see what kina person they are and it left me kinda feeling sorry for them, like they spit all these words because they wanna convince themselves that they are this person that they aren't, being around this person I've seen someone who's super depended and can't be alone and uses "relationships" as a void fulfillment and I know all to well how that ends, I'm not here to judge and there's nothing wrong with how they live but when you have the opportunity to be on the outside looking in, I'm definitely going to observe and not disregard shit and stand to be just another person that you use and when someone new comes along I'm old news, like what kinda a friendship is that? I feel as if we are friends like we were suppose to be then our relationship should've never changed and how I was treated. Communication should have been the same and the level of respect too. Now I see that I was all fake and I was scared to lose such a special person who helped me during some challenging times in that period of my life that I didn't want to lose them, but they knew that and played on that fact smh, so thus I was ran over and disregarded because I'm sure they thought I wasn't going anywhere. TUH! The thing about be after all that I've lived through so far in my 25 years is that I don't tolerate that shit, it's like for what, when there are so many truly beautiful genuine ppl in the world. there's no need to hold on to that, so finally moving out and being able to let go feels great! It all stopped with them, I'm not saying I won't run into MF like them again but when I do I'll be better and know how to handle it because I've gone through it. I'm just glad it's done and the day I decided to move out in Feb was when the count down began and boy did it drag someday, and I also caught the tude that was thrown from them too, but like why are you mad? in my eyes this was a WIN WIN, they can play house and I get to live on my own! tooo funny, well I'm gonna wrap this up, this was a total vent session and a part of how I was feeling through it all and now that its done I can move the hell on, outta sight outta mind! God Bless and take care CD (insider)! P.S. my next post won't be so long and my b-day is in 4 days, you care xoxoxox

what up doe =)

Hey all, just stopping by yet again since it's been a minute....so this year has been great so far, its 3 months in and this year has flown by!! LOL j/k it's at a good pace, it's almost spring time which means my b-day is near!!! Don't have much planned but i know i want to be surrounded by loved one and friends. I'm so glad to finally be able to close the doors on the negative ppl/things and being able to truly realize fake and bs WHICH is another story for another day LOL but all in all I'm just taking it a day at a time and keeping a smile on my face =D. PS SN i must say that i love Sons of Anarchy I'm watching as i type and I def recommend it to those who haven't watched before! Great show from the beginning to end. My all time favorite show was True Blood but they fell off big time on their last season and i was soooo disappointed, but after watching SOA even though i started watching after the show ended it tops all shows bahahahaha

I am DELIVERT! ♥

HAPPPY NEW YEART!!! I'm back for the new year y'all for the 99 and the 2000 LOL hi guys, so it's finally 2015 and this year is already going by fast we already a week in next thing you know it's December 20 =/ but anyway i'm doing great just have a cold boooooo! I just got back from bringing in the new year in Vegas (pic attached) and it was EPIC I had such a great time with my good friends and her family it was everything i imagined it to be and more! I see the last post i made was back in Aug of 2014 and I must say the remainder of 2014 was half bad. I finally went on the anticipated cruise i had been waiting on and to have finally go out of the country and see things i've only seen on tv was everything hunny! I got my life. That trip was a lot of things for me and it definitely opened my eyes to certain ppl in my life for the better and now i see things in a better light! I'll just keep it like and say that just becasue i may not say much i pay attention and remember everything, I don't just say things in the moment, I keep my word, I'm loyal, and I can't stand fakes AND if u do me dirty with childish games like talking ish behind my back or spreading false stories ya DONE SON in the words of K Camp aint nothing to cut a bitch off...I don't see the point in being friendly with anyone and u do ish like that, becasue i see that as u bring me DOWN to your level and why would i want to go down? or be bitter like you? So to sum that up I got a lesson in dealing with aint ish ppl and its just a reminder to keep my circle real tight. With the new year here it's kinda a fresh start in a sense and I'm determined to be in a position on comfy in and i'm NOT giving up, I feel like i keep getting knocked down and I wanna fall out and cry about it but i'm not going be defeated nope! So with that said i'm staying on the grind and trusting HIS process. If only i could write down all my thoughts (sigh) hahaha but i don't have that kinda time to be typing. In other news I'm on that roommate ish again, after being 3 months in i don't miss this at all 'nuff said.