I AM Delivert! some more

Hey Hey Hey!!! I back one month later like I planned to give y'all a piece, so I don't have too much T to spill but I know one thing so much has happened within these past few months and the b-day is approaching quickly! I'm finna be an old lady waahhh. Oh well that just means I'm getting finer like wine bahahahaaha...so I have officially moved!! to my OWN spot and I couldn't be happier decided to do the roommate thing again was a learning experience and made me realize how much I hate it, I'll never do it again until I'm living with my significant other, having a roommate is for the birds I like have my own space and peace of mind and also not having to worry about lines being crossed or anything like that, when I can just have my own place and not worry about it, I've always said the place u stay should be your safe haven and place to relax and have peace, I didn't have that for so many months and I'm just appreciating my new place that much more with my buddy teddy( my dog). I don't regret anything but instead I look back and I see things differently now and I keep mental notes of it so that I don't end up in the same situations I was in before, I went into that living situation thinking it would be alright and couldn't foresee problems with the person I was about to call a roommate BOY was I WRONG!! (I'm about to go in and let have) Sooo a friend told me that going into living with a friend can make you closer or possible make the relationship closer and I feel it did just that, messed up the friendship and most definitely make me see them in a different light and not a good light, it wasn't until after I agreed to move in and a week long vacation took place that I saw this person in completely different way and the way I was treated by them was shocking to me. so with 2 weeks before moving in I had no options to find another place especially with limited funds smh...I wont bore you all with details but I thought that I could stay because it did become bearable but the last 3 months no way, I just can't wrap my head around agreeing to have someone new come into a place I live where I pay my portion of the bills (half) and that 3rd person pays nothing just because u have lonely issues...and to agree to something that was propose wasn't an option in the end because I felt like it was some attempt for them to "run" things which I became hip to over time...sigh. This whole thing has made me realize that no matter how convincing someone's words may be, it means absolutely nothing if you aren't executing it with actions or showing effort on improving, I honestly thought I could trust and I believed nothing could go wrong, no tea no shade but after know said person for a year and a half I finally got to see what kina person they are and it left me kinda feeling sorry for them, like they spit all these words because they wanna convince themselves that they are this person that they aren't, being around this person I've seen someone who's super depended and can't be alone and uses "relationships" as a void fulfillment and I know all to well how that ends, I'm not here to judge and there's nothing wrong with how they live but when you have the opportunity to be on the outside looking in, I'm definitely going to observe and not disregard shit and stand to be just another person that you use and when someone new comes along I'm old news, like what kinda a friendship is that? I feel as if we are friends like we were suppose to be then our relationship should've never changed and how I was treated. Communication should have been the same and the level of respect too. Now I see that I was all fake and I was scared to lose such a special person who helped me during some challenging times in that period of my life that I didn't want to lose them, but they knew that and played on that fact smh, so thus I was ran over and disregarded because I'm sure they thought I wasn't going anywhere. TUH! The thing about be after all that I've lived through so far in my 25 years is that I don't tolerate that shit, it's like for what, when there are so many truly beautiful genuine ppl in the world. there's no need to hold on to that, so finally moving out and being able to let go feels great! It all stopped with them, I'm not saying I won't run into MF like them again but when I do I'll be better and know how to handle it because I've gone through it. I'm just glad it's done and the day I decided to move out in Feb was when the count down began and boy did it drag someday, and I also caught the tude that was thrown from them too, but like why are you mad? in my eyes this was a WIN WIN, they can play house and I get to live on my own! tooo funny, well I'm gonna wrap this up, this was a total vent session and a part of how I was feeling through it all and now that its done I can move the hell on, outta sight outta mind! God Bless and take care CD (insider)! P.S. my next post won't be so long and my b-day is in 4 days, you care xoxoxox