Empire type a night!

Just stopping by huntys!!Things are still on the up and up and life is reaaalll good, summer was hot and hot as usual lol. Now it's fall and the weather is nice and soothing hehehe. Well not much to say,tonight lots of good TV shows on yayay. alright see ya peace!

Feeling good feeling great...feeling great feeling good how are uuuu

Soooo I'm back to blog again since it's been a while and all and I can say with a big fat smile on my face that I've never felt better!!! Ever since I moved back into my own living quarters and moved on from everything negative and what not, things have fallin into palace and I'm seeing the blessings with my name on em rain down and they just keep on coming! I'm truly thankful and just amazed at how much He has done with I gave it all to Him and let my faith and hope by my guide, I have a great job that I'm comfortable with and also stay busy with, it's close to my apartment its not customer service and it's an awesome work/life balance!! I'm really in a good space and I wanna keep it that way, I haven't "arrived" or however you say and I'm still learning and growing and choose to allow the things i go through as learning lessons and ways to improve and i know I'm doing a great job I'm proud lol. It's really a shame that some ppl can apply the same to their own lives becasue when you take the time to grow yourself and take advice from ppl that really care and change, it's a beautiful thing. One thing I tell myself is to not let horrible ppl who are spiteful or petty ruin who i am just because they aren't happy in their own lives, i choose to believe that ppl like that just want you to come DOWN to their level and feel just as miserable as they do, well I'm here to tell ya YOU can't bring me down and I refuse to let ppl like that stay in my life or call them a friend or anything close to a loved one...I still wanna be the person I am who does things outta the kindness of my heart and help ppl anyway that i can, I wont let unappreciative ppl, lairs, and ect tear me down, I choose to accept what happen and move on and know better next time but believe karma is very real and what goes around most certainly comes back around bee-lee DAT ahahaha, I'm really using this post as a venting session mostly even though i have a strong support system and talk with them, it helps to have it written down sometimes to go back on and read and get a feel as to where your head space is/was and all that, I wanted to point out my positives and and release the things that for some reason seem to still amaze me with other human beings. but at this point I'm not surprised anymore, I know i haven't see it all but I'm good on ppl who claim to be soooo happy in life and claim to be great at communication but all they really are is lost in denial and use ppl to fill some sort a empty space they they have in life, just sad, I'll continue to pray that ppl like that find what it is they are really want and release that hurt they seem to be holding onto, and yes I'm talking about someone particular who I'll give the name CD, I don't wanna look at this as a bashing session but just as a way to get an understanding as to how someone can be like they are and how they treat ppl, it's definitely a reflection of how they feel about themselves so I can't take it personal at all, becasue they'll just do it to everyone around them but all I know is that I def don't want or need ppl who disrespect others in my life, f#$%k being fake and talking to a MF cuz I'm bored bitch BYE! IDGF who you are and i'm glad i reached a place in my life to where i can speak up because there was a time when i wouldn't say shit and let ppl walk over me not no MO! AHHH I could go on and on about this and how my perspective has changed greatly but I wont and I'll

just leave it at this K bye

I AM Delivert! some more

Hey Hey Hey!!! I back one month later like I planned to give y'all a piece, so I don't have too much T to spill but I know one thing so much has happened within these past few months and the b-day is approaching quickly! I'm finna be an old lady waahhh. Oh well that just means I'm getting finer like wine bahahahaaha...so I have officially moved!! to my OWN spot and I couldn't be happier decided to do the roommate thing again was a learning experience and made me realize how much I hate it, I'll never do it again until I'm living with my significant other, having a roommate is for the birds I like have my own space and peace of mind and also not having to worry about lines being crossed or anything like that, when I can just have my own place and not worry about it, I've always said the place u stay should be your safe haven and place to relax and have peace, I didn't have that for so many months and I'm just appreciating my new place that much more with my buddy teddy( my dog). I don't regret anything but instead I look back and I see things differently now and I keep mental notes of it so that I don't end up in the same situations I was in before, I went into that living situation thinking it would be alright and couldn't foresee problems with the person I was about to call a roommate BOY was I WRONG!! (I'm about to go in and let have) Sooo a friend told me that going into living with a friend can make you closer or possible make the relationship closer and I feel it did just that, messed up the friendship and most definitely make me see them in a different light and not a good light, it wasn't until after I agreed to move in and a week long vacation took place that I saw this person in completely different way and the way I was treated by them was shocking to me. so with 2 weeks before moving in I had no options to find another place especially with limited funds smh...I wont bore you all with details but I thought that I could stay because it did become bearable but the last 3 months no way, I just can't wrap my head around agreeing to have someone new come into a place I live where I pay my portion of the bills (half) and that 3rd person pays nothing just because u have lonely issues...and to agree to something that was propose wasn't an option in the end because I felt like it was some attempt for them to "run" things which I became hip to over time...sigh. This whole thing has made me realize that no matter how convincing someone's words may be, it means absolutely nothing if you aren't executing it with actions or showing effort on improving, I honestly thought I could trust and I believed nothing could go wrong, no tea no shade but after know said person for a year and a half I finally got to see what kina person they are and it left me kinda feeling sorry for them, like they spit all these words because they wanna convince themselves that they are this person that they aren't, being around this person I've seen someone who's super depended and can't be alone and uses "relationships" as a void fulfillment and I know all to well how that ends, I'm not here to judge and there's nothing wrong with how they live but when you have the opportunity to be on the outside looking in, I'm definitely going to observe and not disregard shit and stand to be just another person that you use and when someone new comes along I'm old news, like what kinda a friendship is that? I feel as if we are friends like we were suppose to be then our relationship should've never changed and how I was treated. Communication should have been the same and the level of respect too. Now I see that I was all fake and I was scared to lose such a special person who helped me during some challenging times in that period of my life that I didn't want to lose them, but they knew that and played on that fact smh, so thus I was ran over and disregarded because I'm sure they thought I wasn't going anywhere. TUH! The thing about be after all that I've lived through so far in my 25 years is that I don't tolerate that shit, it's like for what, when there are so many truly beautiful genuine ppl in the world. there's no need to hold on to that, so finally moving out and being able to let go feels great! It all stopped with them, I'm not saying I won't run into MF like them again but when I do I'll be better and know how to handle it because I've gone through it. I'm just glad it's done and the day I decided to move out in Feb was when the count down began and boy did it drag someday, and I also caught the tude that was thrown from them too, but like why are you mad? in my eyes this was a WIN WIN, they can play house and I get to live on my own! tooo funny, well I'm gonna wrap this up, this was a total vent session and a part of how I was feeling through it all and now that its done I can move the hell on, outta sight outta mind! God Bless and take care CD (insider)! P.S. my next post won't be so long and my b-day is in 4 days, you care xoxoxox

what up doe =)

Hey all, just stopping by yet again since it's been a minute....so this year has been great so far, its 3 months in and this year has flown by!! LOL j/k it's at a good pace, it's almost spring time which means my b-day is near!!! Don't have much planned but i know i want to be surrounded by loved one and friends. I'm so glad to finally be able to close the doors on the negative ppl/things and being able to truly realize fake and bs WHICH is another story for another day LOL but all in all I'm just taking it a day at a time and keeping a smile on my face =D. PS SN i must say that i love Sons of Anarchy I'm watching as i type and I def recommend it to those who haven't watched before! Great show from the beginning to end. My all time favorite show was True Blood but they fell off big time on their last season and i was soooo disappointed, but after watching SOA even though i started watching after the show ended it tops all shows bahahahaha

I am DELIVERT! ♥

HAPPPY NEW YEART!!! I'm back for the new year y'all for the 99 and the 2000 LOL hi guys, so it's finally 2015 and this year is already going by fast we already a week in next thing you know it's December 20 =/ but anyway i'm doing great just have a cold boooooo! I just got back from bringing in the new year in Vegas (pic attached) and it was EPIC I had such a great time with my good friends and her family it was everything i imagined it to be and more! I see the last post i made was back in Aug of 2014 and I must say the remainder of 2014 was half bad. I finally went on the anticipated cruise i had been waiting on and to have finally go out of the country and see things i've only seen on tv was everything hunny! I got my life. That trip was a lot of things for me and it definitely opened my eyes to certain ppl in my life for the better and now i see things in a better light! I'll just keep it like and say that just becasue i may not say much i pay attention and remember everything, I don't just say things in the moment, I keep my word, I'm loyal, and I can't stand fakes AND if u do me dirty with childish games like talking ish behind my back or spreading false stories ya DONE SON in the words of K Camp aint nothing to cut a bitch off...I don't see the point in being friendly with anyone and u do ish like that, becasue i see that as u bring me DOWN to your level and why would i want to go down? or be bitter like you? So to sum that up I got a lesson in dealing with aint ish ppl and its just a reminder to keep my circle real tight. With the new year here it's kinda a fresh start in a sense and I'm determined to be in a position on comfy in and i'm NOT giving up, I feel like i keep getting knocked down and I wanna fall out and cry about it but i'm not going be defeated nope! So with that said i'm staying on the grind and trusting HIS process. If only i could write down all my thoughts (sigh) hahaha but i don't have that kinda time to be typing. In other news I'm on that roommate ish again, after being 3 months in i don't miss this at all 'nuff said.

Welcome to my world!

Hola!!! Been gone for a min now I'm back with the jump off! So just wanted to stop by and update yet again...time sure does fly by!! I've made it through more than half of this year and sept is around the corner. All I can say is 2014 has been one of reflection and growth! I'm 25 and I def feel as though I'm on the right path in my life I've had some challenges and I've overcame them and was able to mold myself into a different person who sees situations way different now insead of copping an attitude or being concerned with others I'm now focused on positive thoughts and me, on big thing I realized it's you have to accept the way things are in life and let go of anything that's brings on neg emotions...I feel (speaking for me) most of our problems lie in the fact that we invison they way something should be and when it's not happening in real life we tend to get angry or in our feelings about it but I promise if u let that go and appreciate your self and life as it is now you'll be 30 times more happier...so these days I choose to take the peaceful road and be 100% optimistic because I give all my worrys and concerns to Him and I know He'll handle the rest He does say all things will work together for my good so I know that even though things may have not gone my way I know it was for a reason and there's something much better out there waiting all I have to do is continue to live, love, keep my faith and be happy!Great things are happening and I've been so blessed so there's no reason to give up now. Xoxoxoxo until next time..

Hiiiii dee hoooo

So it's April and it's kinda cold out....just wanted to stop in and say a little somethin somethin, i has been like 3 months!! All is well I've never been better and I love life muah!!!!! PS its almost birthday time and if ya know me you know its a special day for me, I know some people are like ahh its just another day big whoop blah blah BUT NOPE not me I see it as i'm blessed to see another year, there's a purpose and so I love to enjoy this day. But anyway doe I've gained so much knowledge an I can say I thought I knew ish but now I realize I had no clue wtf i was doing...aww I'm growing, yes I know *pats myself on the back* I feel like i'm at the point where i know myself finally and I can bless and be an inspiration so somebody's life because lemme tell ya you can't be good to anyone if your own self is a wreak. Soo with that said, great things are in store and I'm so fortune to have discovered this at my age now I'm proving myself wrong and while I'm living my fabulous single life I'm focused on making me a great gal for me handling the things I need to take care of and waiting for my someone special to come along lmao.....All in all i'm screaming to the mountain tops that everything will be phenomenal, I'll have my ups and I'll have my downs BUT it's all good because it's all apart of life and at the end of the day if I can say im proud of me that all that matters! OXXOXOX

Currently under constuction (give me a break!) ;)

Its mee again and its a new year! Blessed yet again to have made it to see another year! I said that I didn't want to do any new year resolutions or whatever but I do want to learn new things and really work on myself and most importantly break a cycle i continue to carry! I just want to stop with the same dudes i talk to I just had a realization that if i don't respect myself and wait for what i deserve and not entertain these wack a$$ fools who only wanna "chill", drink, and watch movies or other shit I can do with ppl I actually wanna/can spend time with and laugh then Im not down, I think its because I done that sooo so much that its really old and if a guy is trying to get at me then he's really gonna have to step the hell up! And and i have heard it over and over again but i guess it just takes going through ish and replaying your past in your head and saying to yourself if u continue to allow the bums to be around then that's all that will continue to come my way whats the saying if you lay down with dirty dogs your get fleas? yea I'm just saying I gotta break this ish up if that means my phone stays silent then so be it i'm practicing patience...but on so whole other stuff I'm looking for a new job the only thing i hate is the hours but when I see that check i'm like yeeessss I'm getting paid this to talk to these dummies? can you say OVERPAID, i'm not complaining and I'm thanking HIM everyday but its a give and take because I pretty much have no social life at the momment and can only see folks when i can BUT that's okay becasue it's all falling into place and in due time things will start to happen, keeping thinks positive over here guys!! ♥ this is the year of discovery, not taking any BS getting rid of fuck niggas & self doubt, and lastly acceptance yup I'm claiming it now, no more learning the hard way this chick has had enough. Until next time i'm signing off xoox *turns porch light off*

It's a new year!!!!!

Happpy new year! 2014🎉🎉 

Almost Christmas tiiiimeeee:-D

Thanks to advices in technology I found an app for this blog!!! Now i can blog whenever and NOT just when I'm in front of my computer woo and hoo! So it's almost christmas and I'm at my suck ass job I'm ready to go! But the Jesus is the reason for the season and I'm thanks full for what i got! I'm also just getting over a cold and have a ol nasty cough..I'm so glad I can say that I'm in a much better place that I was last month hell even last year!! I strongly believe troubles don't last and things get better and they're only going to get better for me. I hope every one has a good Christmas Day and happy new year because I plan on it in spite of all the things that may be wrong. I come to the conclusion that it's always gonna be something...smh! I just vow to meet new ppl and keep that relationships I have that are great, Great, do all that I can do (if ya with me ya with me if not kick hard rocks) I just wanna make a good difference in someone's life ya know change it for the better!! Well I'm going to get back to work Ta-Ta and merry x-mas ❌⭕️❌😘🎄

 

2nd Chances.....

Hi bloggers!! OMGGGG it's been soo long since I've been on here and looking back on my past posts i can say I'm in a different place and its for the better thank Gawd!! I must say 2013 has been so bitter sweet so much has happened that i'd never thought would and I have to say that it was very unfortunate and I wouldn't wish it on anyone but I believe

that it's what's needed to happen in order for me to truly realize that the life i was leading was not it!! Sooo with that being said I present to you the NEW ME and I love her and i'm still adjusting don't get me wrong but i've getting there and the sky is the limit. I'm in a good place I using this time to focus on me and figure out who i really am and work hard towards my goals so that i can be established and be right for anyone that crosses paths with me. After my what happened i looked back on my life and realized i have never had time for me i've always been involved with someone dealing with so BS and i can honestly say that i'm not dealing with that and i'm so thankful that ish is for the birds, i choose not to deal and i only want good vibes over here in my space....I feel like I was given a 2nd chance at life and i feel like things could've ended so fast that quick for me but the Man above is defiantly looking out for me. I'm a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and i know i have a purpose in life. I still struggle with negative thoughts and sadness but i'm stronger and i know I can overcome this. I don't wanna be a cliche and say oooo 2014 is gonna be the new start for me because i feel like each day is a new start but I definitely want things to start looking up and fast! I just realized how blessed i am and i don't wanna forget that at all, I have good family and a few good friends and I only want the best for me and the ones who are truly there for me, I've put myself in unnecessary situations and I've glad God has given me that light to see as best as i can to avoid bad shit from happening if I can help it! Well let me gather my belongings and go, I just wanted to stop by and give an update I'll be back tho because I have some more I'd like to discuss so be on the look out!!!! XOXOXOX

♥ hello there!

Heyy whats up!! =D

season of change...

Welp I haven't been on in a while which is my bad maybe i should come here more often to just share a piece of me every now and again to anyone who wants to ready this one day because i highly suspect that no one reads this now lol. So I must say a lot has changed with me from a year or 2 ago and all i can do is realize how much i've grown, I sit here right now going through things in my life that i don't really care for too much but I see this as a huge life lesson and how I'll redirect my life going forward....I feel like the year of 2012 for me has been a big changer for me and I'm just trying to handle situations the best way I can although there have been time where I feel like i haven't done so over the past few weeks, but I truly ready to be better and to show people around me that I am an adult and I'm a special person and not this weird regular female. I hope that when I come back on this blog things have changed for the best and if it hasn't I hope and pray I'm just as stronger than ever! Ok nexxt topic lol...I'm looking for new employment at the moment hopefully I get out!! Wish me luck xoxoxoxo

womp womp

Hey blog, its been awhile....warning I'm here to vent cuz i have no one to talk to as usual....man right now it is soo soo hard for me i now realize so many things now and i wish i can go back and have a do over, all i can do now is pray and worry about me but it so hard and thats the thing i gotta stop caring...I could really use a true friend right now.....

smells like holiday spirit♥

HHEEEEYYY folks! Just coming to give the latest updates in the world of the tot!! So much is going on right now with the holidays and moving to a brand new place, yes that's right I'm moving outta NRH20 finally and its before my lease is up that's how bad it is ugh. No but I've been blessed to finally leave BofA and move to a much better job at another bank and I'm loving it!! With all the talk of layoffs BofA was talking bout it was time to go before I was next!! But yea I'm moving and I'm buy all new things and it's exciting to start fresh and I feel like these are the apt. of my apt. dreams they are so lovely and I rented the very last one until they start building the other phases, I was determined to get in at this place because once i saw them I had to live there no other place had shit on them and its like 5 minutes from my job. So with all this moving and what not I gotta say AGAIN living on my own is the best thing EVER I'm so glad I gotta a 6 month lease at this shoebox I'm living in now and not having to deal with another females trashy nasty ways is the bomb.com and now that its been like 6 months pretty much not living with someone I look back and realize how much I dislike living with someone and this is just my preference especially when they are completely opposite of your personality like me and her were polar opposites. But hey things happen for a reason and I gotta things have been great! SO I'm really excited about this new place its brand spankin new we're the 1st ppl to live in the place and it's a resort style complex I'm mean when u drive up on this place you'll be like whoa, and this place is like 2 times bigger than where I live now (my place is a sad 518sq ft) and this place is like 8 something. So to wrap things up I'm excited and I only have a fortnight left in the shoebox and then i'm out. And on another note the holidays are coming up and I can't wait damn this year went by fast!!!! xoxoxoxo

....ehhh

So for the past few days I've been going through a few strange emotions and I'm just trying to deal as best I know how and that's to pray and be super positive about it!! Right now I'm beginning to think that it's coming around to me and I don't want it to but my relationship with this person is starting to get to me because I think the way I feel it different from what they feel and I really with it wasn't this way, I hope this is just a phase and it doesn't continue to be this way cuz I don't have to live like this and you can be miserable somewhere else. I pray to the Lord things get better and if its in His will I know it will be done. I know that this past year a lot of things have changed and ppl left outta my life but in no way did I want ppl to think that I chose this over them, my door and my phone is always open to you and that's all I can say. One thing I try to do is figure out why things happen just because and I know everything happens for a reason and maybe this is going on to show that I shouldn't have turned family away and this is what happens when u turn certain ppl away that care for someone you just met I can blow up in your face down the line I mean this person has no reason to stay and once they are gone boom you are left with no one BUT guess what I refuse to think this way because one person may feel this way the one person I thought would be there but I didn't and I know I may not be making any sense but I just need to get this out because I have no one to talk to. Man I wish I did because I have sooo much to say but I don't feel like airing it out on my blog. Anyway I hope things get better and I get stronger each and everyday because I have so much to be grateful for and I don't wanna take anything for granted. =D

Howdy!

Heeyy peeps, how's it going me i'm well dankie (thanks in some other language) lol! A lot of thoughts have been going through my head lately and its all for the better I gotta tell ya, man I feel like my mind has been going through lots of changes and it's all up to me to act upon it and I'm ready! More to come......

♥ Hi Dolls♥

OO-MM-GEEE 'ello peeps it's been so so so long!! Hope all is well with everybody I'm doing great!! Soo much has happened since I last wrote I won't even bore you all with it but I must say I'm so observant in the change that Ive made for the better and living on my own is the BEST thing ever!! I'll never be roommates with anyone ever again I love love living on my own. Also I recently got a new job so that's also equally exciting and with that said with my positive thoughts and my hard work, because nothing in life is easy,I know I'm headed to success and being satisfied with what I have accomplished and that is all that matters! Since I'm not wanting to type what all has happened over these past few months I will say this what I have learned is that YOU have to be your own person make you're decisions and live for you, don't let anyone influence what you do because it's your life and you shouldn't allow someone to live their life through you because they need to do themselves, grow up and leave you alone. Okay folks I promise to return and fill you in on my thoughts if you care to read although i really don't think anyone looks at my blog but its all good cuz I can read it months from now and laugh and what I've typed bahahhah. until next time I'm OUT♥

one month and a day later...=)

Heeyyy Guys!! I'm back!! So I gotta say things are going well now and right now its raining so that's even better because i don't have to be in it cuz its Saturday =) Anywho these past couple of days I've been working really hard on me, to change me for the better because as I get older I'm pretty sure my set ways will be the same for me and the way I think 'bout things I'm not liking so I gotta gotta change it! So far I'm doing well and embracing it too although I'm still a work in progress. The one thing I keep telling my self is to let it go and a put it all in God's hands, if it's suppose to happen guess what it's going to happen. If not then God has other plans for ya! I believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason and God puts others in each others lives for a reason as well. In the end or down the line we might have a clue as to what that reason was and sometimes we might not but hey that's life and I don't know 'bout you but I taking it for what it is and loving every minute and NOT wasting it on things I don't like or people who don't enjoy my company cuz I'll find something or someone who does! For now my focus is my school and work with a little fun sometimes in between so if you wanna chill during my free time HOLLA! LOL I think relationships with dudes for me will come later on after I reach my main goal for now which is GRADUATION!! Until I'm having a blast and doin me!! Alrighty that's my church lesson for ya =) and vents hope u like and maybe I'll come and blog before Oct. 24 hahahaaha (get it, cuz my last blog was Aug.24 -_-) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox muah!!

Hey Whats poppin!!

Sup ppl!!!HappY August although the month is almost over hehehe Man things have really been going for me and I just have to take it for what it is good or bad and make the best of it. This is all in learning for me, but I know one thing if your family gives you advise by golly take that to the head and do what they say!!! I've learned the super hard way and that's why from here on out I gonna be the best person I can be mentally and physically with no regrets. I feel like I know what I want and if you don't like or love me for that, move along and find another I'll be just fine I promise. I'm more determined than ever to finish this year off with a BANG since 2010 started off not so great for me but hey I definitely learned my lessons for real for real!! So here's to kicking some serious ASS the remainder or the year and setting it off Tay style hahahahahahahahahaha!! Ok gotta go I'm bout to watch Friday even though its Tuesday, don't judge me....k thx bye