2nd Chances.....

Hi bloggers!! OMGGGG it's been soo long since I've been on here and looking back on my past posts i can say I'm in a different place and its for the better thank Gawd!! I must say 2013 has been so bitter sweet so much has happened that i'd never thought would and I have to say that it was very unfortunate and I wouldn't wish it on anyone but I believe

that it's what's needed to happen in order for me to truly realize that the life i was leading was not it!! Sooo with that being said I present to you the NEW ME and I love her and i'm still adjusting don't get me wrong but i've getting there and the sky is the limit. I'm in a good place I using this time to focus on me and figure out who i really am and work hard towards my goals so that i can be established and be right for anyone that crosses paths with me. After my what happened i looked back on my life and realized i have never had time for me i've always been involved with someone dealing with so BS and i can honestly say that i'm not dealing with that and i'm so thankful that ish is for the birds, i choose not to deal and i only want good vibes over here in my space....I feel like I was given a 2nd chance at life and i feel like things could've ended so fast that quick for me but the Man above is defiantly looking out for me. I'm a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and i know i have a purpose in life. I still struggle with negative thoughts and sadness but i'm stronger and i know I can overcome this. I don't wanna be a cliche and say oooo 2014 is gonna be the new start for me because i feel like each day is a new start but I definitely want things to start looking up and fast! I just realized how blessed i am and i don't wanna forget that at all, I have good family and a few good friends and I only want the best for me and the ones who are truly there for me, I've put myself in unnecessary situations and I've glad God has given me that light to see as best as i can to avoid bad shit from happening if I can help it! Well let me gather my belongings and go, I just wanted to stop by and give an update I'll be back tho because I have some more I'd like to discuss so be on the look out!!!! XOXOXOX

♥ hello there!

Heyy whats up!! =D

season of change...

Welp I haven't been on in a while which is my bad maybe i should come here more often to just share a piece of me every now and again to anyone who wants to ready this one day because i highly suspect that no one reads this now lol. So I must say a lot has changed with me from a year or 2 ago and all i can do is realize how much i've grown, I sit here right now going through things in my life that i don't really care for too much but I see this as a huge life lesson and how I'll redirect my life going forward....I feel like the year of 2012 for me has been a big changer for me and I'm just trying to handle situations the best way I can although there have been time where I feel like i haven't done so over the past few weeks, but I truly ready to be better and to show people around me that I am an adult and I'm a special person and not this weird regular female. I hope that when I come back on this blog things have changed for the best and if it hasn't I hope and pray I'm just as stronger than ever! Ok nexxt topic lol...I'm looking for new employment at the moment hopefully I get out!! Wish me luck xoxoxoxo

womp womp

Hey blog, its been awhile....warning I'm here to vent cuz i have no one to talk to as usual....man right now it is soo soo hard for me i now realize so many things now and i wish i can go back and have a do over, all i can do now is pray and worry about me but it so hard and thats the thing i gotta stop caring...I could really use a true friend right now.....

smells like holiday spirit♥

HHEEEEYYY folks! Just coming to give the latest updates in the world of the tot!! So much is going on right now with the holidays and moving to a brand new place, yes that's right I'm moving outta NRH20 finally and its before my lease is up that's how bad it is ugh. No but I've been blessed to finally leave BofA and move to a much better job at another bank and I'm loving it!! With all the talk of layoffs BofA was talking bout it was time to go before I was next!! But yea I'm moving and I'm buy all new things and it's exciting to start fresh and I feel like these are the apt. of my apt. dreams they are so lovely and I rented the very last one until they start building the other phases, I was determined to get in at this place because once i saw them I had to live there no other place had shit on them and its like 5 minutes from my job. So with all this moving and what not I gotta say AGAIN living on my own is the best thing EVER I'm so glad I gotta a 6 month lease at this shoebox I'm living in now and not having to deal with another females trashy nasty ways is the bomb.com and now that its been like 6 months pretty much not living with someone I look back and realize how much I dislike living with someone and this is just my preference especially when they are completely opposite of your personality like me and her were polar opposites. But hey things happen for a reason and I gotta things have been great! SO I'm really excited about this new place its brand spankin new we're the 1st ppl to live in the place and it's a resort style complex I'm mean when u drive up on this place you'll be like whoa, and this place is like 2 times bigger than where I live now (my place is a sad 518sq ft) and this place is like 8 something. So to wrap things up I'm excited and I only have a fortnight left in the shoebox and then i'm out. And on another note the holidays are coming up and I can't wait damn this year went by fast!!!! xoxoxoxo

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So for the past few days I've been going through a few strange emotions and I'm just trying to deal as best I know how and that's to pray and be super positive about it!! Right now I'm beginning to think that it's coming around to me and I don't want it to but my relationship with this person is starting to get to me because I think the way I feel it different from what they feel and I really with it wasn't this way, I hope this is just a phase and it doesn't continue to be this way cuz I don't have to live like this and you can be miserable somewhere else. I pray to the Lord things get better and if its in His will I know it will be done. I know that this past year a lot of things have changed and ppl left outta my life but in no way did I want ppl to think that I chose this over them, my door and my phone is always open to you and that's all I can say. One thing I try to do is figure out why things happen just because and I know everything happens for a reason and maybe this is going on to show that I shouldn't have turned family away and this is what happens when u turn certain ppl away that care for someone you just met I can blow up in your face down the line I mean this person has no reason to stay and once they are gone boom you are left with no one BUT guess what I refuse to think this way because one person may feel this way the one person I thought would be there but I didn't and I know I may not be making any sense but I just need to get this out because I have no one to talk to. Man I wish I did because I have sooo much to say but I don't feel like airing it out on my blog. Anyway I hope things get better and I get stronger each and everyday because I have so much to be grateful for and I don't wanna take anything for granted. =D

Howdy!

Heeyy peeps, how's it going me i'm well dankie (thanks in some other language) lol! A lot of thoughts have been going through my head lately and its all for the better I gotta tell ya, man I feel like my mind has been going through lots of changes and it's all up to me to act upon it and I'm ready! More to come......